on the second day of my long long holiday.

I love mango.
fresh or preserved.
got a pack for the day.
nearly finished.

the days starts early this morning
arrived at sai kung pier at 9.30 for the trip to the fish pond
love the weather

just start to realize its really not a very good idea of having drums lessons on sunday.
coz I can't join any activities becoz of that...
kinda stupid to leave sai kung at noon
but anyway
its good to learn drums.
I love it.

some steps that you can skip.
it all takes time.
to learn
to live

just like when I try to finish all the tracks
it takes time
it takes time

been trying to leave office early these days.
jogging and dinner with freinds
its all very precious moments

am trying to learn again.
something new.
something I never interested in before

well..
will see...

everytime I said I needed a holiday,
it actually means I needed a new start.
Aug 20 and Sep 1.
would that be a good start?!

if you're looking for a possible solution.
please ask something resonable.

don't give me 90 random questions for suggestions when you really want me to focus on the important ones.
or give me resonable time for all that you ask.

I will always say NO.
sorry.

holiday
maybe i really need to take a break.
a break from everything.

feeling good these days.
riding and hanging out at night
and my drums lessons are good.

I just needed to be with my friends
needed to talk
needed to share

planned to have dinner with my girl friends last night.
my best friends during secondary school days
we know each others so well
but sad to say
not anymore

hate when people try to lie becos of some silly things
why not telling the truth
why not dared to?

turned up to sham shui po for walkies
and sai kung for bbq at last

and now I can scold Ray the dummy for not taking the right route.
yes. I am very mean.
but I always think am lucky to have meet friends liek that
first time riding in heavy rain...
it's fun though I don't really like the feeling of getting wet
and maybe my body is really too weak to take the headwind

maybe its also time to consider changing to another bike soon
to a manual one

really like that beginning of this summer.

time flies
its nearly end of June
busy hustle weeks

started drums lesson last week
long friday nite with dinner & snooker with my new made good buddy
drums practice early sat morning followed by hair cut and drama
wargame early again sunday morning

love my busy weekends
though its really tiring
I feel good

trust me, you won't recognize me from the back~ haha

re adjusting my ATTITUDE

that I'll never tell you.
I hate talking.. to strangers
people I don't know.
so.
I just needed some time
maybe to adjust my attitude
again

SLOW DOWN
and don't try to rush me.
slow response is now my weapon.

我看見，不代表我真的看見。
我聽到，不代表我真的聽到。
我說話，說著沒意義的話，
我活著，就等於我活著嗎？

looking at all the lines I wrote few years ago
realizing that I'd been travelling round the circles
walking all along the way
how far am I really away from where I started?

what have i done all these years???

I can jsut tell u i know I am a very lucky person but I always take it for granted. and always not satisfied. --> so I am not happy at the moment..

been vanished for a while
partly becos my PC at home is half way dead
basically am not allowed to work for more than 20 mins with it
sometimes when things go wrong
u never find the reason why
it just gets worse

kinda like the red light from the hard disk
its the signal for me to go to bed
whenever its on
there comes after the system hang and force quit of the whole computer

well... it'd been 2 years and maybe it really is time to replace the 'vacumn cleaner' here

these few weeks so many things happened
you might say I'm indifference
but I had been trying to avoid getting to know what's happening to the environment
used to concern about a lot of things
sitting next to my colleague who claims to care about so many things
I doubt what's his intension

it can all just be like a playlist,
what you show doesn't really mean who you are
its just what you wanna show....

anyway....
am just too tired
no logic at all

it's just I ain't no good at remembering dates, logistics, the sequences of things happened
but I do remember people, their names, what they have done, what had happened

I have to put on my clothes and take off my clothes whenever my colleagues adjust the air conditioner
funny though, instead of making changes to themselves,
people nowadays prefer changing the environment when they don't feel like fitting into

I do have a colleague who wears long sleeves everyday
and he loves to turn the air con to HI & 19'C
so I told him to put off his clothes.
and his answer was "never"
haha....

I like him!
but I also hate him!

seeing the JL110 again on the day I paid the deposit for the yamaha
meeting the continuity of the first movie I worked for as a friend of the bike owner
don't know if she recognized me
but I definitely recognized her

I really believe in fate that
for people you are devined to meet in your life
you will meet them again, and again...

was thinking
where will I be now, if I worked for the second movie and didn't join TVB in that summer?
will I still be sitting in the same office here?

Siumo has been transferred to a new owner yesterday.
Suprisingly it was a very pleasent experience.
It was really a joy seeing the mom and the kid sititng inside saying goodbye to us.
and he was so eager to go and see monkeys!
what a coincidence?! he likes monkeys too?!

I was very picky on the buyers
people say I'm not selling the car at a good price
for me, money really is not the most important issue
well, it's important though
but if I definitely cannot get my target price,
why bother taking another 2-3k discount and sell it to someone who really wants it instead?

I was really happy when I pass the car to them.
and am sure I won't forget the beautiful picture, seeing them smiling happily with siumo.

too many noise
too many talkings
too many phone calls
too many communications on going.....

I found myself can't really concentrate on work after moving to the new office

the only time I can work is after all the people are gone...........
sad...

ARIES - The Aggressive

Outgoing. Lovable. Spontaneous. Not one to mess with. Funny. Excellent kisser EXTREMELY adorable. Loves relationships, and family is very important to an aries. Aries are known for being generous and giving. Addictive. Loud. Always has the need to be 'Right'. Aries will argue to prove their point for hours and hours. Aries are some of the most wonderful people in the world.

TAURUS - The Tramp

Aggressive. Loves being in long relationships. Likes to give a good fight.
Fight for what they want. Can be annoying at times, but for the love of attention. Extremely outgoing. Loves to help people in times of need. Good kisser. Good personality. Stubborn. A caring person. They can be self centered and if they want something they will do anything to get it. They love to sleep and can be lazy. One of a kind. Not one to mess with. Are the most attractive people on earth!

GEMINI - The Twin

Nice. Love is one of a kind. Great listeners Very Good at confusing people... Lover not a fighter, but will still knock you out. Gemini's will not take any crap from anyone. Gemini's like to tell people what they should do and get offended easily. They are great at losing things and are forgetful. Gemini's can be very sarcastic and childish at times, and are very nosey.
Trustworthy. Always happy. VERY Loud. Talkative. Outgoing VERY FORGIVING. Loves to make out. Has a beautiful smile. Generous. Strong. THE MOST IRRESISTIBLE.

CANCER - The Beauty

MOST AMAZING KISSER. Very high appeal. A Cancer's Love is one of a kind. Very romantic. Most caring person you will ever meet in your life. Entirely creative Person, most's are artists and insane respectfully speaking. They perfected sex and do it often. Extremely random. An Ultimate Freak. Extremely funny and is usually the life of the party. Most cancers will take you under their wing and into their hearts where you will remain forever. Cancers make love with a passion beyond compare. Spontaneous. Not a Fighter, But will kick your ass good if it comes down to it. Someone you should hold on to!

LEO - The Lion

Great talker. Attractive and passionate. Laid back. Usually happy, but when unhappy tend to be grouchy and childish. A leo's problem becomes everyone's problem. Most Leos are very predictable and tend to be monotonous. Knows how to have fun. Is really good at almost anything. Great kisser. Very predictable. Outgoing. Down to earth. Addictive. Attractive. Loud. Loves being in long relationships. Talkative. Not one to mess with. Rare to find. Good when found.

VIRGO - The One that Waits

Dominant in relationships. Someone loves them right now. Always wants the last word. Caring. Smart. Loud. Loyal. Easy to talk to. Everything you ever wanted. Easy to please. A pushover. Loves to gamble and take chances. Needs to have the last say in everything. They think they know everything and usually do. Respectful to others but you will quickly lose their respect if you do something untrustworthy towards them and never regain respect. The do not forgive and never forget. The one and only.

LIBRA - The Lame One

Nice to everyone they meet. Their Love is one of a kind. Silly, fun and sweet. Have own unique appeal. Most caring person you will ever meet! However, not the kind of person you want to mess with... you might end up crying... Libras can cause as much havoc as they can prevent. faithful friends to the end. Can hold a grudge for years. Libras are someone you want on your side. Usually great at sports and are extreme sports fanatics. Kinda dumb at times.

SCORPIO - The Addict

EXTREMELY adorable. Loves to joke. Very Good sense of humor. Will try almost anything once. Loves to be pampered. Energetic. Predictable. GREAT kisser. Always get what they want. Attractive. Loves being in long relationships. Talkative. Loves to party but at times to the extreme. Loves the smell and feel of money and is good at making it but just as good at spending it! Very protective over loved ones. HARD workers. Can be a good friend but if is disrespected by a friend, the friendship will end. Romantic. Caring.

SAGITTARIUS - The Promiscuous One

Spontaneous. High appeal. Rare to find. Great when found. Loves being in long relationships. So much love to give. A loner most of the time. Loses patience easily and will not take crap. If in a bad mood stay FAR away. Gets offended easily and remembers the offense forever. Loves deeply but at times will not show it feels it is a sign of weakness. Has many fears but will not show it. VERY private person. Defends loved ones will all their abilities. Can be childish often. Not one to mess with. Very pretty. Very romantic. Nice to everyone they meet. Their Love is one of a kind. Silly, fun and sweet. Have own unique appeal. Most caring person you will ever meet! Amazing in bed..!!! Not the kind of person you want to mess with- you might end up crying.

CAPRICORN - The Passionate Lover

Love to bust. Nice. Sassy. Intelligent. Sexy. Grouchy at times and annoying to some. Lazy and love to take it easy. But when they find a job or something they like to do they put their all into it. Proud, understanding and sweet. Irresistible. Loves being in long relationships. Great talker. Always gets what he or she wants. Cool. Loves to win against other signs especially Gemini's in sports. Likes to cook but would rather go out to eat at good restaurants. Extremely fun. Loves to joke. Smart.

AQUARIUS - Does It In The Water

Trustworthy. Attractive. Great kisser. One of a kind, loves being in
long-term relationships. Can be clumbsy at times but tries hard. Will take on any project. Proud of themselves in whatever they do. Messy, and unorganized. Procrastinators. Great lovers, when their not sleeping. Extreme thinkers. Loves their pets usually more then their familiy. Can be VERY irritating to others when they try to explain or tell a story. Unpredictable. Will exceed your expectations. Not a Fighter, But will Knock your lights out.

PISCES - The Partner for Life

Caring and kind. Smart. Center of attention. Messy at times and irresponsible! Smart but lazy. High appeal. Has the last word. Good to find, hard to keep. Passionate, wonderful lovers. Fun to be around. Too trusting at times and gets hurt easily. Lover of animals. VERY caring, make wonderful nurses or doctors. They always try to do the right thing sometimes get the short end of the stick. They sometimes et used by others and hurt because of their trusting. Extremely weird but in a good way. Good Sense of Humor!!! Thoughtful. Always gets what he or she wants. Loves to joke. Very popular. Silly, fun and sweet. Good friend to other but need to be choosy on who they allow their friends to be.

so.
do whatever you are paid to do
and.
don't ask me for more

sometimes, it jsut takes sometime
to make up a decision
sometimes, we are just waiting for things to happen
sometimes, you jsut get the feeling that its the time to do something

its time to sell my car
although I know I will miss it
it took me only 2 days to make up the decision of buying
it took me more than a year to make up the decision of selling.............
feeling like talking about a relationship
too easy to hook up,
just too difficult to get rid of........

but as long as I'm not using it for the pass half year
and as long as I'm planning to get a bike

so on the bright sunny days during this holiday
I brought it to lung koo tan,
to kam shan country park

haven't been to the country for really a long long time
I like travelling
always feel good along the road
I can't tell why
maybe its the escape from the boredom of the crowded city
from my stressed job
by looking at the moving scene
teh stary sky
the setting sun

knobs needed to be disattached
one by one
and its good to have a start

interestingly,
its the tears that I mentioned in the past few days.
you know what you really miss.
well...
my body never lies

I used to cry a lot when I was small
but not anymore as I grew up and I found myself can be tough with everything

only very few can make me cry,
last time I remember I cried, was in January this year

so when Jamie told me not to cry,
I felt ironic enough becos I can't even feel my tears coming out
how could I cry?

YEAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

time to plan what kind of bike to have!!!!

all problems can be solved
really wanted to learn how not to get stressed.

people say, everything has quota, everything.
my quota for watching TV probably used up during my primary school days.

I have the feeling that,
my quota, for meeting good people,
probably comes to the end too

my friends remember me as a good liar during secondary school days.
forgot since when, I don't really want to lie anymore.
I wanted to trust, and to be trusted.

compared to lies, I rather prefer the painful truth
maybe I really will be happier if I don't know nothing
but it just doesn't match with my character
I'm just curious about everything
and at the end of the day, I will just find out the truth
accidentally
eventually

well, who cares?
about what to say, about what they have said?

my qouta for trust will soon be used up ... I think

I am tired.

office removal
for the 3 third in 1 year.
this will be the last time.
I like our new office.
and longing for the new start.

packing.
busy packing now.

I told ya, I was trouble
You know that I'm no good

been dreaming a lot recently which is very tiring
slept for nearly the whole day today
not my plan
but its was a peaceful sleep
maybe I needed a break
needed to change my attitude
towards everything
especially on how I work

I have expectations
too much maybe
at least I can't accept something below "standard"
maybe I should learn from the others
maybe to lower my standard?

I am very tired
and SICK

another Magnolia for life after Match Point
I like Woody Allen
he is just so good at all these details in daily life
obsessed with "fate" maybe
but its always the single decision that triggers the turning of life
the single decision that makes all the difference
the single decision that ends up a life

there is not right or wrong
good or evil

life is a drama writtened
a game that has been set

can't take the distance with those who had been so close
for once the passion had passed

i am just being too sensitive
the distance is like a thousand lightyear just in a flash
and it's a torture